“This week, begin to purify your thoughts and speech. Use friends, ritual, forgiveness, journaling, etc. to release toxic, stale, negative thoughts. Replace these thoughts with love and gratitude.”
The above is Deborah’s suggestion for Week 2 of Saucha practice. I’ll be honest and say that I wasn’t as successful as I would have liked. For about half of the week I was really in a rather nasty mood. I’m not totally sure what it was, but once I wrote about how I was feeling I did feel a bit better.
Today I’ve been feeling rather pissy as well. I took my daughter to swim lessons this morning and she was being a bit difficult, as 3 year old often are, and I was all bothered by it. I was feeling bothered even after I dropped her off at daycare. As I was walking to the car I suddenly realized the whole reason I was so pissy was that things weren’t going my way. Well, shit. Inside I was like a 3 year old stomping their foot and saying, “I don’t wanna! I don’t wanna!”. Good grief. Who am I to expect things go exactly as I want them to? Can you say “ego”? I sure can. I can also say “egoic mind” which is precisely what was getting in the way of me having a good day today. Once I realized that I was being a real turd expecting things to go exactly as i wanted the egoic mind started to loosen it’s grip on the day. It took a while of walking around and ruminating over this for my egoic mind to loosen it’s death grip on my state of mind and my ribcage, but once I was able to actually step back and see that it wasn’t actually Me making my day bad, but my ego, it was easier to release those thoughts and feelings. YAY! Even though last week was about this practice, I’m still working on it today, which is kind of the point I think 😉
So anyway, last week was hard. I was just in a kind of nasty place. Still not sure exactly why, but I did feel better over the weekend and the end of the week. I wanted to give you an update on my Nightshade avoidance too, in case you were interested. If you didn’t read last week’s post about Nightshades, check it out.
No Nightshade Update
So for my second week of no nightshades, I also gave up pasta. It is A LOT easier to identify what my body doesn’t like without nightshades…..
Pasta: Not sure what is going on here. I can do bread no problem, but for some reason pasta makes me feel gross. I don’t know what exactly it is, but it’s something to do with my GI tract. Maybe how it’s processed? Anyone have any suggestions?
But yes, no nightshades has gotten easier the longer I go without them. I miss spicy food and tomatoes the most, but I don’t miss the gas, bloating, and upset stomach. I do plan to add them slowly back into my diet one at a time to see what happens, but that won’t be for at least another week, maybe more.
Cheese: One of the things I noticed last week without nightshades or pasta was that cheese is not my friend. EXTREME SAD FACE. I love cheese. Bummer. I haven’t had a problem with yogurt or milk so I’m also wondering if it’s how it is processed? This week I’m not having cheese, but yesterday I did have a Parmesan Ranch dressing on my salad at lunch and could tell – more sad face. I won’t be having that again this week and will have a homemade balsamic vinaigrette instead.
I’ve gotten a bit ahead of myself, but there you have it. This week I’m avoiding pasta, cheese, and nightshades. I’ll let you know what happens next week in an update. I’m still working on purifying my thoughts, body, surroundings, etc with Saucha this week and every week, but will write next week about slowing down and doing one thing at a time. Spoiler Alert: I’m having a hard time.
I hope you all have a most excellent week! Any ideas on my processed pasta issue? Have you had any diet changes recently that you love/hate/hate to love?